So it's been a while since we wrote, due to holidays and finals and all that shit, so we are just gonna jump into it.
Okay so Jenelle and I wanted to talk about fitness in one post, because we both have been going to the gym and we really like talking about it. But over the holidays we kind of stopped going and we both feel kind of shitty about it but it's honestly just so hard to get motivated to exercise when you could be hanging out with your family who you never see, or your family who you always see but love anyways. Also, since I went home for the holidays my whole routine got kind of messed up and I haven't done cardio in like two weeks.
ANYWAYS, I just wanted to write about some things that I feel when it comes to "getting milked" or being "up in the gym just working on my fitness fergalicious".
I started out going to the gym because I wanted to lose weight (mostly boob weight). I hardly even have a reason to want that, but you know how society pressures everyone and blah blah blah.
But after I began going to the gym I noticed that I was feeling better on the inside. Like, I barely saw a difference physically because it takes a while, but I was less moody, more energetic, felt like doing more of my hobbies, etc etc. So then that was the motivator for continuing on. Because feeling happy and having energy is always something that I've longed for. It's so gosh dang important.
Now, after going for a while, I started noticing a physical difference. Which feels great, but adds a more complicated side to it. Now my motivator was to keep the weight off, or build a better booty, or get those oblique lines. I do love having multiple forms of motivation, but I just felt like it wasn't the healthiest motivator because it had less to do about how i felt and more about how i looked. And I think i already care enough about how i look and not enough about how i feel.
ANYWAYS I found a solution and another form or motivation which is really fun. I want to be strong enough that I'll feel confident to take a kickboxing class or learn krav maga. I want to work out so that I can one day take my boyfriend down. I like the idea that I'd be able to defend myself if the situation ever arose. And being strong would be nice! I would feel like I could take care of myself
So I've been suuuuper shitty with working out lately (sorry, Megan, I haven't been keeping you updated on that) for a few reasons. Mostly because I can't afford another gym membership which isn't an excuse but I'm too stressed about money to care, and also because I'm starting to get pretty stressed out about going to school again and my stress literally just freezes me, and that sucks.
I had been going to the gym for about six months though, so I feel like that compared to my month and a half off ain't too bad, but I've noticed lots of changes without going already.
The worst thing for me about taking time off from the gym is that not going to the gym makes you lazy, but you're so lazy that you can't even imagine going to the gym, so it's just a vicious circle. I'm still in lazy mode, but I'm planning on trying to get back into it once school starts, kind of make a schedule up for myself again. Money is a big thing though and I'm just trying to keep that in mind.
What Megan was saying about body image really started to effect me too. When I first started working out, I was so focused on being thinner but the longer I worked out for, I became way more focused on how strong I was getting. I was SO excited when I could leg press 120 lbs. which probably isn't a big deal to some people but I was just like "wow, my body is capable of that and it's so EXCITING", and feeling that excited about your body's capabilities is way more rewarding than feeling like you look more desirable to strangers because who cares except them, you know? The people in your life who really love you won't care about what you look like and they'll be happy that you're doing something for yourself that makes you feel strong and healthy more than anything.
I think Megan and I mostly wanted to write this post because we have no idea what we're talking about and we want other people who don't know anything about working out to know that you don't really have to know anything to do it. It's really easy and simple to just do whatever works for you physically, as much or as little as that may be. All that really matters is that you're doing something good for your body. That being said, I'm going try to start going for walks just so I'm doing something because unlike most things in this world, walking is FREE dude.
Anyways, this post was a lot less organized than I was hoping, but I think Jenelle summed it up nicely. It doesn't matter what you're doing it for, as long as you do something. Even just a walk can help clear the brain and relax the mind. We have no idea what we're doing. Don't listen to us.
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